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J. vs Piyo. PIYO WINSSSS!!!!!

2011-10-08T07:25:00.000-07:00

WAH. why did i even think of blogging now only? so long since i expressed my thoughts! no wonder i talk all over the place now n cant hold a conversation properly isit?? but NOT ANYMORE! because now im blogging again n i hope it can help me organise my thoughts better.. but after this post like i am gonna post more often like thaaat! so look forward to my next like 2 years from now! hahah :P i talk as if immm soooo popular everyone wants ta read my bloggg. hahah yea right barbara, always so full of urselff. heheh!

HAD THE CRAZIEST DREAM LAST NIGHT.

( in dramas when people say this line the camera will turn to the sky n have tt dreamy soundd. OK PPL LETS IMAGINE THAT!) hahah. but how i wish it was real!! so now, u know that its gonna be a nice story!! maybe for non third parties only lah. heheh.

I had a car ride home after churchh. and that car ride home was from J.!! he offered to send me homee like right to my doorstep! ( which nvr happened beforee ARGH.) so ya i took his offer as mention in my first sentencee. hahah. while i was in his car, he suddenly said something like " dont you regret not telling me your feelings? you always had the chance but why didnt you? now This is ur chance to say it." ok i guess my heart was beating fastt but i cant tell in dreams! then we stopped at the traffic light and his good friend D. walked pass and teased both of us and said," J. finally got an oppurtunity to tell her ayeee? all the best to you!" and walks awayy. In my dream, i knew that J. likes me. But i didnt say a wordd i was too happy i was speechlesss! hahah. So i reached my housee, and after awhile later i texted him and told him my feelings. i was so happy that i wanted to tell my mother REAL LIFE. so i woke up! and i realised IT WAS ONLYY JUST A DREEEAAAM! hahah. U know i realy dont mind just dreaming about it n whats gonna happen next than doing it real life. i dont wanna break hearts.

Im so disappointed in myselff! and i was even sleeping with K's hoodie! like seriously a cheater! well, got my valuess so i dont do it real life, only in my dreamss. hahah.

To my cute little macho sexy K. u know who you are! heheh. hope ure not angry with me! if u read this! but u wontt see this post cos u think that my blog is dead because u are like my blog noww. heheh! but i doubt you wna hear this! hahah. so this blog is still useful! hehehe :P ew, hate being so giggly virtually. i dont even do it real life! SO ACT CUTE. EW. hahah

K./ piyooo maybe if i knew u long enough you could erase everything i have in the past. Because you're the best that i can get. You impacted my life so muchh. i could speak my heart out to youu. you're not like any other guy. ( maybe you gay?!) hahah. :P i could be myself when im w you. you love me for my annoyingness and u could tolerate my nonsense. i feel like crying this is too touching already!! hahah. but fine, cos ure just as annoying and childish as me. Hope you dont change dont be not annoying and not childish! u must accompany me! okok?? heheh. Bet J. wouldnt tolerate me for nuts also. hai, shouldnt hv said how good you are to me! PANTANG PANTANG. later the opposite happen. IT WONT! *cross all my fingers!* I LOVE YOU MY LITTLE CUTE PIYOO! Let's live day by day being happy n not care whats gna happen tmr! <3 <3 <3

N u just told me at 10.04pm "i will take care of you, dont worry" AWW! hahah! ok cannot be too touched over that. 3/4 is sweet talk. 1/4 still sweet talk! hahah. he said this cos i cant open a can of tuna and he insulted me tt i can't take care of myself. stupid boiboi. i still love you for being mean to me! eheheh.

new beginnings not equals to light out of the tunnel

2010-10-02T06:58:00.000-07:00

WARNING: THIS IS A DAMN FREAKING EMO POST.

The fact that we only didnt meet for one day. kept my mind spinning and thinking only about the C word.

The fact that i let my guard down so many times because i always thought that a new beginning would be a light out of the tunnel.
But the new beginnings i have, always have a lousy ending.
and surprisingly, half of me says that im numbed to the same thing over and over again, so its ok to keep trying. Finding new beginnings.
But the other half says that i should never let my guard down. Fearful that things would be worse than a lousy ending. Thats why, i thought that flings would be a better option. no beginning, no lousy ending and no light out of the tunnel.

i would never learn how to love myself and others. and i hope someone would teach me how to.

u just dont give a shit.

2010-09-08T03:33:00.001-07:00

HI AGAIN MY DEAD AND LIFELESS BLOGGGG... hahaha. erm; i know i suppose to be studying.. but omg, how can blogging ever compare to law pls.. hehe..

I dislike people who dont give a shit when i talk to them and tell them what interesting thing happen to me today. n they seriously just dont give a shit. like as if im talking to a wall a dead person and myself. yes i know im boring.. but you would be interested if you love me. ok end of story before people dont give a shit again.

kuih bahulu at 2.38 am..

2010-08-05T11:27:00.000-07:00

Eating Kuih bahulu my popo bought from M'sia ytd, almost pespiring in the
kitchen and using my dad's laopok laptop at 2.30am, shall b my new found life style!!! like quite fun ah. u all should try it someday! :D hahaha no lah, pulling ur into my trap so tt i got ppl to talk to at this time. LOL! dont ask why im still up. no reason. :P

photoshoot for my fat terappin! :P

2010-07-03T22:58:00.000-07:00

If my terappin join animal modelling contest ahh, IT CONFIRM WIN ONE LOR. HHAHA :D

THERE EVIDENCE HEHE
wah act lion king only. LOL

PIYO,
im looking for somebody i can call boo,
looking for the only one i can give my all to,
tell me if its you you you,
what you gonna do do do,
make ya movee <3

no title.

2010-05-28T00:46:00.000-07:00

Everytime i see his face in lecture, my whole life becomes exciting againn.. hahaha! ok, so hua chi! my gourd.. but i was thinking, if i really got together with him, i wouldn't see him as my husband in future. So, what's the point of being together, to already know and confirm that this whole love cycle would end..? Sad huh. :( but i still want to know you pew pew! <3

Or maybe i think that way because im still immature. HELLO?! 19 already, still think like 16 yrs old. screw myself. But pew pew isnt any better i guess.. hhaha!!!

Oh yes, living in my own mad world..

To my used to be another half,
I still think of you everynow n then, we used to always bump into each other in school, till God heard my prayer n answered it. hehehee.
Maybe you're a blessing in disguise because whenever i feel sad n angry angsty depressed, somehow or rather, your twit would cheer me up. Isit by mere coincidence that my twits are linked to yours, or did you deliberately do it? You're fueling the curiousity in me..
you know, if you dont fancy me anymore (cos love is too strong a word for you, you dont use it until you find yourself a wife), dont show wrong signals alright? Dont hold on anymore, if you still are, move on. Move on with me. Like that, we would be happier people. :D
The memories with you still haunt me every single day i wake up..like a nightmare but only being awake.
and sometimes i think, do the memories still haunt you? do you still think of me? do you want to like another girl, but you find it hard because you still hold on to what we used to share?
be honest with me.
I wrote on twit "when im kissin you my senses come alive" i was just being random, but at the very corner of my heart, i was referring t you. and the next day you wrote, "when im kissing you it all start making sense.." maybe its just coincidence. But you deleted that post a few hours later... so i guess its not? or youre referring to someone else? :( but anyhooo, yeah! good! dont give the wrong signal when you're sure of us splitting. :)
K, back to studying business finance.

"Its like toally deleting you off my contact list, off my everything.."
"I know what i want now, its pewpew." hahaha! :P :P :P :P

Dont touch my hair if you dont love me.

2010-05-21T08:42:00.001-07:00

I get emotionally attached to guys who touch my hair.. no idea why!
it wld make me fall for you but u're ignorant of the harm u're causing for both of us..

SO, Dont touch my hair if you dont love me. :)

or mayb, ure the exception.. :D

SANDY PRO MAKE UP

2010-05-03T11:41:00.001-07:00

wahh.. we should seriously learn from her how to make up leh.. damn pro the way she put her eyeliner. ONE in a million man. HAHA! I LOVE YOU SANDY. dont kill me. :P <3

MOCHA ORANGE

2010-05-03T11:06:00.000-07:00

new hair siol! nice? look at those eyebags n blackeye! they werent mine till i slept at 2 almost everyday lah. sad.

IN RELATION TO THE DAMN LENGTHY POST.

2010-04-27T10:54:00.000-07:00

Was bored, and started reading the REAL lengthy post i posted in March. To the end of the post, those few paragraphs, i guess im being TOO unreasonable. Im really sorry about that. And Yeah, maybe u tried.. and guess we rushed into things. The sudden urge i couldnt resist. :(

and yes, i hv something to say to you during tt day we bumped into each other.. i wanted to say " I still miss you.." but now, i guess my response wld be "im glad we're just friends" :)

AGREE?? :D

E MOST INSANE THING I WLD EVER DO.

2010-04-27T10:49:00.001-07:00

THE MOST RIDICULOUS THING I WOULD EVER DO IS TO WAVE BACK AT A BUNCH OF GUYS IN A TRUCK TT WAVED FIRST. (THEY'RE NOT CONSTRUCTION WORKERS!!)

BUT I DID. (Y)

OFF TO TAIWANN.

2010-04-03T18:16:00.000-07:00

HEY! Im taking off to taiwan at 1230pm today! i AM SOO EXCITED THAT THERE WILL BE SO MANY MOVIES I HAVE YET TO WATCH ON THE PLANEE!! like percy jackson! OMG. hahaha! well, i supposed to reach the Airport at 9.30am but i have no idea why i still think i have the time to blog... LOL my mom's gonna kill me if she see's tt i switched on my laptop. :S

Ill be touching down in Singapore on 10th april 10pm! incase you guys might be wondering where i've been.. haha.. ILL REMEMBER TO GET STUFF FOR UR! dont worry! all of you are very dear to mee.. :D you know who you are. <3 alright! TIME TO GO!

CHOU TOU FOO, HERE I COME!

BE GONE STOMACH CRAMPS!

2010-03-31T09:06:00.000-07:00

I just told myself " I love stomach cramps " while having it at the same time, and unbelievably, it DISAPPEARED! Im a genius! well, at least its comforting for me to be a genius in something. Girls, try saying u love stomach cramps! and tell me the results! :D

BE GONE STOMACH CRAMPS!

the things u dont have, u ought t have it.

2010-03-30T12:56:00.000-07:00

firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY. we're gonna go megumi at siglap in the evening to celebrate her birthday today! ( its 3.58 am) the food there is soo awesome! they sell 3 quite big pieces of goose liver for only 14 bucks! that's REALLY reasonable compared to Equinox's goose liver at a price of 10++ bucks for one pathetic piece. N at both places, the livers taste just as good! so tell me, which is more worth it?

Anw, happened to chance upon one of my friend's status on FB.. n wow, he really thinks deeep.. unless thats just copied off the internet. well, i would like to give him credit today.. but not really, cos im not gonna expose his name here.. "Whats not meant to be yours won't come back to you after you lose it, but what is meant to be yours, will always come back to ur side no matter how many times you throw it away.."

n yeah, this post is gonna be abit lengthy and it already has, but i hope you'll just read thru n see how interesting my relationship life is.. or u cld just stop here n leave the blog with that long quote in mind. :D

According to my friend's status, i dont know whether its gonna come back.. the thing is that, so what if its meant to be mine? when i dont give a damn about what's meant t be mine? n id rather give a damn about what's not?! hmm, how would i be so sure that it's not meant t be mine in the first place? but, from the looks of it, yeah, making assumptions are correct sometimes.

Why do i always want the things tt i know i cannot have, and dont want the things i can have?! i am so dissatisfied! for once in my life, why can't i just get somebody thats nt right for me but WILL be right someday? yep, its 4.16am now, im just honestly bullshitting.

what IS chemistry? From e dictionary, it says : Chemistry is the interaction of one personality with another. what is YOUR definition of it? well, dictionary says chemistry involves personality right? and the only way where there is interaction with both personalities is through spending time with each other more.. n thats what we lacked.

You always have work, work seems more important to you.. n i have my dancee but i asked you to come for my performance, but u told me u HAD work. N you told me you tried.. That wasn't even trying. the only think tt you tried was give excuses not to show up for my dance! what was i to you then?! and i thought maybe after dance, we could hang out and catch up for the days we nvr saw each other. But, i didn't even see u trying at all.. i have no idea what is try to you..

and u can tell me "we dont have chemistry" when u barely even got to know me.. Argh. And, dance and ur work is not all im talkin about.. there are other areas too.. I guess not telling you how i felt about what u did and always leave u in suspense was wrong..yeah, looks like from secondary sch till now, you telling me "youre more serious" was just every guys trick to gain the girl as his fling. -.-

oh, im soo tired.

NAILS AND SNACKS

2010-03-08T10:20:00.000-08:00

this is what james n hui gave me for my final year exams! they want me to grow fatter! :P ehehe! THANK YOU!!>(without flash)
(with flash)

HEY! this are my DIY nails! HUI asked me to post em.. so here they are!! its meant to be balloons.. but they look like deformed lollipops.. hehehe! LOOK AT MY HAIRY FINGERS! YUCK.

frustrated...!

2010-03-02T06:59:00.000-08:00

i feel like closing my eyes and dancing to LOUD LOUD LOUD REALLY DAMN FREAKIN LOUD MUSIC. To shut myself out from the WORLD!! ARGH. lets go clubbing! ARGH. PISSED.

YEA, im the lil paranoid girl.

Why dont you ask me out at all? and i thought hols we could spend more time together. D: D: D: D:

I shall stop here..

DANCE IS LOVE, UNFAILING. :@

it aint love :(

2010-02-16T10:11:00.000-08:00

how i wished we didnt like, but we loved..

Thanks for the Kitkat, thanks for the nice stroll down the beach (even tho i had so many bug bitess, it was worth it :D), thanks for pasting that clorets sticker at my house stairs.. its still there. haha! Thanks for sending me back when it was really late, and paid for everything. thanks for thinking of an excuse when i went back home.. :P No guy has done so much for me before..

There's so many things i wanna do for you, but i dont know where to start because im afraid u might laugh at mee.. :(

sigh, if only u didnt forget most of the time.. it hurts n i get angry, but my anger span last for seconds, and i don't want to tell you because im afraid u'll get angry. But why do you forget? do i mean so little.. why can't it be like Not Fair by lily allen. the First verse.. haha! but tts abit exaggerated..

i wished i didnt like you more than you like me.. n neither you like me more than i like you, But i wished we loved each other the same; sooner or later..

Oh well.. i didnt expect it to b like that. its kinda interesting..

KUAY NENG GOH

2010-02-12T04:19:00.000-08:00

MOMMY MADE KUAY NENG GOH TODAY!! the steam cake we eat every CNY?? ya THAT. hehe..her first time. im so proud of her. AHHA. :P me without fringe.. look like a freak. :O

see ya babes!

My past lover, lover, future lover. DANCE

2010-02-03T09:06:00.000-08:00

OMG, this is exactly what i feel, felt, and in the midst of feeling.. :)

While I dance, I cannot judge, I cannot hate, I cannot seperate myself from life. I can only be joyful and whole. That is why i dance. -Hans Bos Quotes

You can't find happiness as rich as in DANCE.

hassle being a girl

2010-01-31T04:18:00.000-08:00

argh. so angry at myself. I always thought that it was their fault.. but after things kept repeating, now i start to wonder whether i'm the one with the problem.

shit, its freaking tiring! freaking tiring to get my hopes all up when it has to go down the next day.. omgosh, when u loved, i didn't. when i started to, you lost it. but why? tell me the reason why!!! AHH.. i nvr learnt my lesson! i didnt guard my <3 well enough that i have to let it break again.

i'm super moodless.. all the time i wished i were dead. i guess that would be better off for me! i'm losing faith, losing hope.

Why can't anyone last?! yea, cos they're just not the right one.. but HUh? after so many times...?!

so freaking scared.. freaking scared of what this world has to offer. freaking scared of another situation like this, period

beauty on the inside means more than beauty on the outside :)

2010-01-24T05:35:00.000-08:00

"You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside;
but on the inside are full of dead men's bones & everything unclean."

-Matthew 23:27

2010-01-19T09:59:00.000-08:00

SO TRUE SO TRUE.

Thanks for the encouragement.

2010-01-19T02:51:00.000-08:00

played w "baby" in eva's house and asked whether i should cut bangs, baby said "yes! <3"so from ytd onward, i had bangs! straight black BANGS.you can say that i belong to primary school more than poly.. see the change! :P

Do you remember?
The memories we shared?
How could you possibly forget?

Something so precious?
Something so worthwhile?
Unfairness cripples me.
When i live here, & you live there.

and we shared the memories here.

But that's not the point.

Too heartless for me to identify with you again.

You're a mess.

She's influenced you,

She's made her thoughts yours.

Didnt you know?

I just Hope, you turn back.

Don't go the wrong way anymore.

In His love and mine.

You know, i might not know who you're writing to, i might not know the reason why you posted that on fb, but i deeply appreciate your comfort, your optimism.. and i will smile because it happened. :D Thank you. Don't shun, accept this.

What I fancy recently :D

2010-01-13T11:14:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry for being seriously random.. But I hv wanted t put this on my blog a long time ago..

I FANCY guys who have shoulder length hair, tall, muscular and wears a cross necklace!! All of the guys tt meet this criteria wld DEFINITELY b my eye candies! Heh heh ( like who on earth wld b bothered pls.. -.-) lol!!!!!!

When I saw him w a cross necklace, he mesmerized me :)

"I can't believe I just saw some unsitely news today.. N therefore I boldly can make the assumption thaaat....." hehe :(

guess what? I'm using my itouch t blog!! How cool is that! LOLxzx!
K, I'm lying on my bed now preparing t sleep..

Barbs, ure so dead, lecture is at 9 am tmr.. Argh. :P

new yr resolution

2010-01-11T07:30:00.001-08:00

HIIII. Ive been thinking of what my new year resolution would be.. n while i was bathing, i thought of it!! ok, my new year resolution for 2010 is... i must NOT eat macdonald's BK KFC or whatever the whole year!! ahhaha! omine, its kinda hard to keep w it tho..

oh well, if i broke the resolution i wouldnt care tt much anw. HEHE.

ohhh yeaa! While in the Salon straightening my hair, i read in CLOE magazine THAAAT OIL BLOTTER WOULD NOT cause more pimples. and, it is actually worse if we dont use it. becos the oil on your face would trap dust & THEN cause pimples. for those who keep havin e mindset that oil blotter would cause the face to be more oily and stuff, its actually not true. :D SOOO.. START using oil blotter to have LESS pimples! ( i ain't lying.)

woow..oil blotter companies should just give me commission or something for helpin to promote oil blotter K! heheh!

"mygosh, barbs, what are you thinking? wake up! WAKE UP."

my love is innocent <3

2010-01-04T08:36:00.000-08:00

A MIND AT PEACE WITH

ALL BELOW,

A HEART

WHOSE

LOVE IS

INNOCENT.

everything about me?! n just me?! u very sure about that?

2009-12-30T07:33:00.000-08:00

FALSELY ACCUSED. (monday)
maybe because i have a face of a culprit.. a face that tells people that whatever bad thing that happens, its ALL caused by me...
When she told me " God will judge you! " i was stunned and angry. I wanted to rebutt & say " no i didn't do it! Who on earth would do such a weird thing?! Don't make assumptions! & God would JUDGE YOU EVEN MORE FOR WRONGLY judging people!" What stopped me from saying was respect. -.-

(wednesday)
She & i were walking towards the car, talking about my secondary school friends & that i havent met them EVER since i went to poly. She said " you keep talking about YOURSELF. some people just dont want to hear about you all the time" "you have to show more concern for your friends"
Don't tell me i don't show enough concern for my friends?? honestly, I DO show concern. but when i ask, they just won't wanna tell me.. so what must i do?! false the shit out of them?!
n i listen to people, pray for them, but i don't really give advise.. n its not because I CANT BE BOTHERED, but because im fearful that my advise would cause even greater problems! so ITS THAT CALLED LACKING CONCERN?!
FINE, IM NOT A GOOD FRIEND. I HAVE LOW EQ and whatsoever. u happy now? is the whole world happy now? im just being me.. thanks for NOT accepting me for who i am. i am so grateful.
N WAIT, U WERE THE ONE WHO BROUGHT ME UP. means you're trying to say that you werent such a good parent after all?

christmas

2009-12-21T09:48:00.000-08:00

TO ALL GIRLS OUT THERE..
christmas, is it really the time of reconcilliation??

If He allows or doesn't allow it to happen.. ill trust Him why He does n doesn't.

unexpect the expected & expect the unexpected.

relievedd

2009-12-19T09:59:00.000-08:00

I'm not regretful, I'm just relieved. :)

I WANT SEXY LEGSS :(

2009-12-14T06:14:00.000-08:00

ahh!!! i sooooo love pixie lott's legs!! i want her legs!!! can someone tell me how to get her legs?? does running really help?? or does it just make ur legs muscular..?? i want my legs to be slim n longated n toned!! i dont want muscular... can someone pleaaaseee edify me?? (my source of motivation to exercise.. heheh!)

and and andd.... katy perry looks so gorgeous in starstrukk!! i wished i was an angmoh, with black hair n blue eyes.. she's so pretty! not fair.. :(

hot guy from 30 secs to mars!

2009-12-11T03:29:00.000-08:00

omgosh, im being seriously random now.. but i was like watching mtv ytd n today n i saw this MV by 30 secs to mars "kings n queens"!! n like i find this guy hot?? hehehe!
okay, the first time i saw him i found him HOT
second time i saw him, i found him ok
third time i saw him, i find him ugly..
but im still gonna post his pic on my blog. LOL! i know im lame.

( its abit blurrr)
rate him k? LOL! from 1 to 10.. see whether i've bad taste.

2009-12-04T09:27:00.000-08:00

I totally agree now that life w/o You is a mess!!
& everything in this world is temporal...

I choose to go back to my First Love-

changed the lyrics : " Lovin' is a mistake & its not worth makin' "

being happy

2009-12-03T10:03:00.001-08:00

BEFORE YOU KNEW ME, YOU WERE HAPPIER...

BEFORE I KNEW HIM, I WAS HAPPIER...

& i wished that i didnt know him at all. SIGH

no u didnt last

2009-11-28T10:11:00.000-08:00

Betrayal & disappointment overwhelms me..
i didnt expect it to happen, its just too sudden..
Unbelievable; the fastest change i've ever seen.
It was a short rush of adrenaline & euphoria..
& yes, i thought it might last, but i thought wrong.
no, i don't blame you. Its your choice, your decision.
How can i force you not to? i respect you.
Even though i thought you were my cup of tea,
there is always a barrier; forever there will be.
you come.. you go, you come.. you go, will it always be a routine? i am tired of it.
i wished i was emotionless to feel, to hurt, to be happy and sad.
Why can't I be tougher?
Why can't i guard it!
But i know, there is a reason why you appeared,
& maybe now that you've done what you supposed to do,
Its time for you to fade away.. away from me.. away from both our memories..
I'm not totally sure of how you feel.. but im putting faith into it.
Numbed.. Argh.

disappointment

2009-11-19T10:29:00.000-08:00

Etude #7

A: I hate you

B: you dont mean that

A: Because i think you need to know

B: Why are you telling me now?

A: You've changed so much

B: Not by choice

A: I can't understand you

B: I never asked you to

A: It's her fault, you know

B: Dont blame her!

A: She changed you

B: maybe

A: I thought u were stronger than that

B: So did i

A: i guess we shouldn't see each other again

B: that sounds so final

A: It's the only way

B: i feel lost..

Halloween makeup done by ABIGAIL!

2009-11-02T08:38:00.000-08:00

This is the make up abi did for me for halloween!! credits to her!! :D <3<3

the loveliest n most wise quote

2009-10-14T07:40:00.000-07:00

"You're not gonna promise to each other that you will not disappoint one another because at some point you will. What is important is you don't go away, you don't escape, you don't leave one another just because you were disappointed. That's the meaning of fidelity." i love this quote!!

-cheryl said this is from tumblr.. whats that?? lol!

bruise n brownie!!!

2009-10-09T07:37:00.000-07:00

heyya'll! this is the massive bruise i got from doing floor work in dance.. hahaha. it looks like those hairy birthmark!! dont u think??

stayed over ryl's hse to bake brownies!! actl, we supposed to bake the brownie the day before for her friend kenny.. bt it was too last min. SOO, we decided to bake it for OURSELVES! mann, we're sure grow fat!! bt its so mouuth watering!! no one cld resist the temptation. hehe! :P

see those black chao ta bits on the side of the tray?? hahah! tts actl burnt marshmallow.. we actl put marshmallows in the batter, bt it got burnt in the oven n we took all of em out.. Ahhh! wasted!! :(

i am not biting the tray if u all think tt i am.. haha!! im smeling the browniee :D

unglam, the new beautiful

2009-10-03T08:45:00.001-07:00

Took this straight away after lifegroup. guess we need t amuse ourselves. haha!

unglam is the new beautiful.... !!

the farewell was a fake!

2009-10-02T23:07:00.000-07:00

YOU guys are such good pretending ppl! hahaha.. i really really love the card, the floweeerrss and the tiara!! n i cant believe ya'll wld celebrate my birthday for me!! its like one month and 10 days ago.. haha! n i got kinda sad when eva pulled me into stan's room to write both ryl n jul's cards.. n i told her " you all didnt do this for me.. :(" then she just kept quiet n lied on stan's bed.

I seriously didnt expect to get a card too.. i was like so busy watching "the hills" thn suddenly anna brought out a cake n all of ya'll started singing happy birthday to ryl jul n me.. i was rlly surprised n stunned for a moment. hahah! you guys are just so sweet n adorable to hv gone grocery shopping early in the morning for dinner.. anna, the steak n pasta was delicious! i really loved it! thank all of u for everything! :D

HURRY UPLOAD PICS PLSS!! :D

val, i hv no idea why u gave this name to me.. hahhaha! bt i love it. (:

nicholas is a dickhead sex maniac

2009-10-01T11:21:00.000-07:00

IF YOU CANT HANDLE ME & ONLY ME, THEN YOU CAN'T HAVE ME AT ALL.

YOUR LOST! :P

the best time id ever had!

2009-09-28T11:17:00.000-07:00

THIS IS PROBABLY THE LONGEST POST I HV EVER BLOGGED!
hey lovelies! i rlly enjoyed myself in the chalet.. it made me feel so much better after the terrible shock i had. im so grateful to you guys, even if ya'll think tt ya'll didnt do anything much. thanks joey, van, dennis, kaijie, mandeep.. i love u guys so much! hahaha.. n also cheryl, eva, julia. i love all of u! -kisses.

i know all of u are dying t get the pics.. ahah! im sorry for those unglam ones..u can kill me nw cos im gna post it here..hehe! bt i photoshopped some tho. haha! :D omgosh! i fell in love w photoshop! it amuses me! hahah!

n yeah, i didnt know i wld spend my wildwildwet trip w joey,tom,yangkhai,dennis & kaijie. i thought i wld spend it w... yea. haha!

so here goes! :D

see the difference? hehee.

Red.Sensual.Lustful. HAHA

in the morning...

haha..tom..

mandeep's unhealthy brunchh!

WILD WILD WET BABE!

almost defined pacs! sexy as.

sexxaayy much!

joey's hottt!!

yay! finally.. hope ya'll like the pics! :D

kaijie's birthday & equinox!

2009-09-10T23:34:00.001-07:00

EQUINOX!!

This is inside the lift! it's so pretty.. the colours of the rainbow.. (:

My mom and dad

Sis & I

GOOSE LIVER!! yummy! *drools*

sry, i knw this looks disgusting bt i had to take a pic of it. in memory of the half bitten lamb chop. HAHA!

guess where's this??

give up???

alright! its in EQUINOX TOILET!! HAHA! my sis looks pretty. :)

i look diff compared to last year's equinox pic..

i look like a monster!

i needa peee! :( LOL

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAI JIE! :D

FRUIT CAKE!

omg! tom's mouth so big! he's so enthusiastic abt singing kaijie's bday song. LOL!

omgosh!! look so cute. HAAH!

yay!! cutting cake!

vanessa, joey n my gift to kaijie!

omgosh! look at those fat legs! it's none other than mine.. :(

Thanks to dennis! we had to eat all these! -.-

TOILET AGN! AHAHAH!

I love you!

a bet at the airport!!

2009-09-09T09:57:00.000-07:00

Greetings loveliesss.
Today im gonna write a super duper long post. its been a while since i wrote one.u know me, lazy. LOL!

Oh, how i miss you, i miss your sleekness, i miss your touch, i miss your warmth..we shared so

many things together;every moment & every second of my life, i can't do without you.

I wouldnt be able to do my work properly without you.. and now you're gonee. You don't know

how much you mean to me. You've always been there to listen to whatever i have to say, to

listen about my life..n now, i just feel empty without you. I'm sorry that i didn't treat you with

love and respect, i know you're hurting now..but it's only gonna be for a while sweetie. It takes

time to heal what you're facing. Everything wld be ok.. i would treat you with love respect and

kindness. you have to be well again dear.. i just want to let you know that i always love you, my

beloved vaio...heheheheheh!

My grandparents came back from canberra today! they visited my kopitiam"a bel's KOPITIAM" n they said that my stall food was over priced but it was totally delicious! hhaha!
My mom, dad n i were waiting for them at T3 belt 46. I was rather restless then, so i told my parents, "ok! whoever spots popo and gonggong first, wins $10! the other two players hv to pay $5 each." guess wht, I WAS THE ONE WHO WON $10!! HAHAHA!thank you almost perfect eyesight! then my dad n mom started bickering with me that they saw em first. totally B.S. LOL!

they brought back 120 mandarin oranges n i was packing them in 40s at their place..thn all of a sudden i had to take a crap.. of all places ya knw. i feel bad. LOL. I wna stay at their hse agn, my sis n i always use to stay over on sats when we were kids..i miss those days. gosh, nolstagic much?

ciao.

Bleeding love

2009-09-05T10:21:00.000-07:00

aww.. if only i had a dance partner.. :(

u said u werent terrific.

2009-08-30T09:49:00.000-07:00

ore gu li hmm mai kam ho pa jie...

thanks vanessa for translating this for me. LOL

ure in love with a bitch

2009-08-25T09:21:00.000-07:00

i got called bitchy because i scolded someone for losing my bangle and got carried away..i wished i had a lower voice.Then people wouldnt be irritated by me.I guess ill just keep quiet next time. i hate my voice.

i guess im really a bitch.

SMILE =D

2009-08-19T03:25:00.000-07:00

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, youll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
Youll see the sun come shining through for you
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile..
- Nat King Cole

Really setting priorities right??

2009-08-16T04:58:00.000-07:00

Friday Sat and Sun have been really bad days that no one would ever want to go through.. n its really hard to explain..

But everything will be alright, even if we have to be seperated a g a i n , everything will be alright because, God is sovereign, n He loves u and i, He is control over every single situation..N even if He bring us through bad times, I wont give up on Him. I would never ever do that. I hope you wont too. James 1:2 really touched my heart this week.. & i hope uve been touched.

I dont think all those words uve said in the past still exist in ur dictionary now..

ok! going to finish studying econs now! hate it, but i dont hv a choice.. LOL!

- God is in control and He'll bring us through this!

obsessed with you

2009-08-09T21:12:00.000-07:00

I'm so proud to have such a loving, caring, understanding, smart, funny, lovable, adorable, good looking boyfriend. i have no idea what i will become without you..

for every minute and every second of my everyday, you are always on my mind. i cant stop thinking about you. that's how much u mean to me. you're my everything.

I'm obsessed with you, dear.

i love you the most!
promise me we wont be distant, no matter what...

ill always love u nick.

2009-07-11T01:35:00.000-07:00

HEY! im so so soooooo HAPPY tt i can finally see my boyfriend's face MOVING!! he finally got his webcam back.. hehehe!

thanks dear for the poem.. its really lovely.. sigh* i miss u even now when ure on ur way t some suburb for ur gig.. how i wish u were here w me.. i dont even hv mood to study econs nw. hahahha! no matter wht happens, no matter what i felt last week, i am not going t let go of what we have now.. ure always mine and i am urs forever.

& i make a covenant to God n a promise to you love, that i will stay with you forever and i will never leave u. I love u always n forever! MWAH!

P.S: I DREW THIS on paint! hope u like it. LOL

ur nerdy girlfriend signing off!

i miss u so much..

2009-06-23T08:50:00.000-07:00

another mental note: i hv to _ _ i _ _ Love's _ _ c _when he returns to sg AND buy him death note for his belated belated belated belated belated X 100000 bday present.. LOL!

for the past 2 days, ive been wondering what uve been up to at grampians.. how's rock climbing? how's camping? how's the weather? brought enough clothes? were u unwell? were u thinking of me? all this questions keep running thru my head.. i realised tt i cant do w/o you, even for 2 days.. i feel empty. ive got so many things to tell u.. n i would always call ur phone to hear ur voice message made by u. i know its dumb, bt its the only thing i can do to nt feel sad.

I dont want us to distant, its the worse thing i can ever imagine of. i hope u dont hv to go for camp next time.. im so selfish..

Love, i need you. n everytime when i think of what would happen in dec, i only knew i would hv 1 month to feel u n joke w u, to lie on ur shoulder on the bus, to hold ur hand n to see us seperate agn for another 11 months.. n i hope its worth it, i know its worth it.. becos nth cn ever come between us.. " in sickness, and in pain, for as long as we shall both live. No man, woman, child, animal, TIME or thing in the world can tear us apart."

I love you always n forever n i cant wait to talk t you tmr.. im addicted to you.. even though i hate t b addicted to anything, i knw ure worth my addiction. mwah!

sims, nt a wise choice..

2009-06-20T23:32:00.000-07:00

actl i didnt want t change my blog skin yet! but didnt hv a choice... cos of my stupid tagboard! i wonder who banned me from using my own tagboard.. its not me though. yea, so when i copied n paste the cbox html code in my template agn, my whole blog went haywire.. everything ws in a mess! so ya i changed my blog skin.

i followed love's choice.. :D

woow, God reminded me tt i should seek ye first the kingdom of God n e rest shall be added unto me. ive learnt from my mistakes.. (mental note) i should always seek Him first before i make any decisions.

i hope i didnt get cheated

2009-06-11T02:51:00.000-07:00

He wouldn't lie to me..
He wouldn't..
i don't wanna hurt anymore..

i love u nick. mwah!

2009-05-20T09:01:00.000-07:00

You are the reason that i breathe
You are the reason that i still believe
You are my destiny
No there's nothing that can stop us
Nothing can ever come between us
So come and dance w me!
love..

ETP w 07!

2009-05-09T08:43:00.000-07:00

Since my mom's at indonesia, i took e initiative t spread my own bread in cuz's house. haha! look at the cinnamon sprinkled bread.. disgusting right!

i really enjoyed my time at the theme park.. sitting wet and wild 3 times viking ship twice, 3 times of family coaster, 3 times of yakult, gg the haunted hse and go cart! lol..

i cant believe i started out first and ended up second last.. so lao kwee! stupid dingping dick and kaijie! i think its nt my fault.. the go cart got problem. haha! vanny was last.. she takin her own sweet time. haha!
after etp, went ah ma's hse t celebrate mother's day. haha! and let me tell u somethin, kids now adays are gettin so disrespectful.. my cousin's cousin who is in primary school, doesnt answer her aunts and uncs.. she's like so proud. she has t rmbr tt she's nt a big shot or hot property just becos she's the youngest. stupid girl. AHHA! -.- i was so pissed w her i didnt even wanna give her my attention. haha!

love's in mt gambier.. i miss u..

THE MENACE

2009-04-29T09:17:00.000-07:00

ok.. i said tt cos i was nt in e right state of mind. LOL. but thanks for finding stupid shit for me. hahah!

orientation! rock on!

2009-04-15T01:18:00.000-07:00

After 6 months of slacking, im finally starting poly soon! whoo hoo! *does a ripple t the right and t the left*

many things happened in these 6 months.. like eva taught me piano! lol.. and gg sam's house t bake stuff.. the breakin and e patching. hai.. the nt so carefree months. haha..

cant wait t see e new enviroment! since im from an all girls school.. just hope tt i will guard my heart. im surely gonna be a roasted duck tmr.. DANG! but i hope ill hv nice cool team mates! hahaha.. and nt t forget, HYPER!

if only you'd wished me AJAH AJAH for my poly life..

i just read straits times and home.. real boring can! lol.. but no choice. its for my future.. :(

BEL, URE ON UR WAY T BE A FUTURE ACCOUNTANT! AJAH AJAH! see ya lovelies!

cheng gong le!

2009-04-08T23:50:00.001-07:00

Wo chen gong le! i managed t call love with my calling card!then i heard him flushing e toilet and all..HAHA. yay! thanks sam, tim, miaba for helping me! hahaha..

hai.. i just came back from old chua chu kang road.. the first time in my 17 yrs, i accompanied my mom t see my great grand ahma! haha! i tell u ah.. tt place is quite freaky.. like seriously la! the tombs are all so near each other, u hardly hv enough leg space to walk and hv no choice but t step on other ppl's tomb. haha!

then i told my popo " wo hen pa!!" then she was like AHYA! bu yong pa la! then she pulled me along.. but i didnt go and bai bai! haha.. i only had t bow.. isit a sin? LOL.. my grandpa force me then my popo was like BU YAO SIAO LA! haha! cos i kept procrastinating and giggling t my popo tt i didnt want t bow cos im christian. Heres a pic of how occk chinese cem. looks like.. i know its really disrespectful t take photo but i wanna show t those who hasnt been there b4. (:

(now outside my house the cleaners like washing the floor.. my steps are bound t be wet! -.- sry for being random.. its just tt its super noisy)

anw, after e whole chengmeng thing..i went t see my granduncle's HUSKY!! DARN CUTE!! her name's Tisha.. and she can talk! like a human! no kidding.. next time if ur wanna see i bring ur go his house. AHA! tt chic dog couldnt stop moving cos too excited t see me AHAH! kidding. then i couldnt get a nice shot of it. Her eyes are golden can!

ending this post w my narcissism. hahah!
bye peeps!

( i wanna thank e camera in my LG viewty. i think all e shots are pretty clear!)

dearly loved

2009-04-01T08:58:00.000-07:00

He loves me
He knows me
He wants me
He chose me

Thus, i am dearly loved.. (:

Difference between Love & Infatuation

2009-03-30T08:07:00.001-07:00

heyyall! (: i was listening t some audio cd by ps benny ho. He preached abt what's e difference between Love and Infatuation. & i guess its best for u guys and girls t know. hope this will edify you. haha

INFATUATION vs LOVE

1) infatuation is a feeling, but love is willing.
--> infatuation comes in e realm of emotions, it has nth t do with the will.
it is stirred up becos of something desirable
--> Love is not just a feeling, it is a decision, a choice all of us hv t make. Rom 5:8

2)Infatuation doesnt need the element of time WHILE Love is cultivated overtime.
--> Infatuation is "falling" in love at first sight
-->Love is nurtured & nourished

3)Infatuation is self centred, most of e time one sided. Love is selfless
--> when ppl are infatuated w each other, they would say " i love you, becos u're so beautiful"
-->when there is real love, they would say " you're so beautiful, becos i love you"

4)Infatuation is temporary but Love endures.
--> infatuation starts quickly & ends quickly
it passes w TIME & diminishes w DISTANCE. it nvr last. "out of sight, out of mind"
--> Love's phrase would b "absence makes the heart grow fonder"

read phil 2:3-4

"TRUE love lays down his/her life for others & looks to the interest of others"
quoted from Joshua Harris

so are u really in love or just infatuating?

Dance, makes me happy!

2009-03-25T03:17:00.000-07:00

i was like packing my table yesterday and i suddenly thought of my 15 yrs old birthday present. a dance poetry book given by my lovely parents. then i rmbred when i first opened up the wrapping paper, looked at the word dance, and i was soo pissed that i fling the book out of my room, and my mom had to pick it up for me. sick! i was super kiam pa last time.

u guys might be wondering why i didnt like dance. actl, i love dance but ppl around me caused me to hate it. they were just so ____.

well anw, tts not the main thing i wanna say in this post. i came across this dance poem which really touched me. for all u dances & non dances out there! hope this inspires u. (:

God's in me when i dance,
God, making spring
Out of His thoughts
& building worlds
By wishing
God
laughing at His own
Queer fancies
Standing awed,
& sobbing,
Musing,
Dreaming,
Throbbing,
Commanding
Creating
God's in me
When i dance.

-Mary Carolyn Davies.

i terribly miss you. but i understand, we're countries apart.

My heart is deceitful

2009-03-20T10:05:00.000-07:00

Jeremiah 17:9 says, "The heart is deceitful above all things, And desperately wicked; Who can know it?"

Lovers to friends

2009-03-19T09:39:00.000-07:00

Flames to dust,
Lovers to friends

I knew this would happen
im glad tt we made our stand
rather than drag it..

Because He lives.

& because Jesus lives
i can face tmr
because He lives,
all fear is gone.
& because i know
I know He holds the future
& life is worth the living just because He lives!

& this chapter of my life closes on march 18 09 (:

tried, and not trying agn.

2009-03-17T03:50:00.000-07:00

crap, i wasted 3 months of my life and im gonna waste one more month. -.-

Bel u're just too smart.

I read the sweet side of you. but i nvr saw it.

2009-03-08T10:20:00.000-07:00

I was bored, so i happen to come across your blog. i read the older posts from last year.. and i didnt know u were a person so deep in thought, who wrote better than now. lol.

ur older posts made my throat dry, and i could hardly swallow my saliva. you were too sweet. where did u get all these inspiration from? okay, im asking a rhetorical qn. haha.

after i read them, i felt tt whatever stuff tt happen recently, didnt mean much t me anymore.. and i guess all tt matters was what happen in the past.

im sorry t step in.. i wish i could go back in time. go back to december 13.. i could change my thoughts, my actions. but its too late.

Maybe i shouldnt hv side track. i should walk straight ahead.. shouldnt hv looked at something pretty..my eyes sinned.

'Well, Annabel, pick urself up! life hasnt really started yet. haha! and u know very well tt God is there. He always is. (:'

-the feeling's different isnt it? ( hope u get what i mean )

a scream bottling inside of me

2009-03-06T08:08:00.000-08:00

i need to exercise. im becoming moody lately.. i need t scream. scream real loud.

-Humans are so frail.

if u say u want t b like jacob, then ill give u what u want.

2009-02-28T08:28:00.000-08:00

As you said you want t be like jacob, then u can be like him, but you cant have bella cause she's still waiting for edward.

love,
B.

Jesus loves me even when im imperfect

2009-02-18T06:48:00.001-08:00

Men failed me.. but Jesus loves me even when im imperfect. =)

Lord i want to glorify You w my actions from now on.

Thanks for the advice (:

2009-02-08T05:23:00.000-08:00

Even when im old enough to think for myself, thanks Anna and hsien xian for giving me some advice. I really appreciate it. It made alot of sense to me. (:

-to continue or not to..

bye friends

2009-02-05T07:17:00.000-08:00

ive kept it for future reference.

LOLLI AND LOVE

2009-01-20T08:12:00.000-08:00

LOLLI & LOVE SITTING ON A TREE,
K-I-S-S-I-N-G.

hello ROME

2008-11-22T00:22:00.000-08:00

hi! im flying to Rome in 9 hours time! im soo excited yet afraid. its a 12 hours flight and its been 5 years since i took a plane.. i wonder whether i can tahan. haha! cant wait to watch HYD final on the plane!! i cant believe tt they're showing la!! yay! EVA AND CHERYL u hear tt? haha.. yup! i know u all will miss me. haha kidding. yup! ill come back in.. 12 days time! PRAY FOR JOURNEY MERCY k? thank you..

Jesus take the wheel

2008-10-24T09:08:00.000-07:00

randomness'

2008-10-06T10:10:00.000-07:00

ok ive gt a few random things to say.

today i went jogging at bedok reservior and its shiok!
and i just realised tt my first infatuation was when i was 10 years old. okay tt's sup'r young. errm..the amazing thing was the first i shared t was.... GOD! so cool right! haha.
oh! today i also watched camp rock on disney channel ( i only watched it now when it showed on sept 7) and i really think tt joe jonas(shayne) is hot. haha! his rosy cheeks and all.. but its just make up.
oh ya!! isit 10000 steps or 1000 steps tt makes u lose weight? and.. breeze walking is more effective than running! songmui told me abt it. she watched it from some korean documentory. if nt true, go scold her k? haha! kidding.

okay tts enough of my randomness.

anw, God's just awesome. He's just soo amazing. on dunno which day when i was doing my qt then readin some verses from genesis, then i wondered like.. if God knew abt adam and eve sinning then hid in the bushes, why did He still say to adam " where are you?" hv u ever wondered? haha. i wanted to ask aunty doris abt it on sat but then we had to pray so i forgot abt it. then today, i was reading this qt material and it said tt God asked adam "where are you?" its because God still wanted to remain in a relationship w adam and eve and t begin e restoration process which was completed on the cross at calvary. woow! haha. i just realised tt this year i keep having soo many qns abt everything in life. WHY? and i realised tt God will only reveal to me wht He wants t reveal t me when the time is right.

okay change topic. well, as i was joggin at bedok reservior just now, then i looked at tp, and i wondered wht i will be like when i go t poly and im afraid tt ill b so attracted t e world tt i lose track w God. im really fearful of e future even though i know tt God knows wht's gonna happen. oh well.. i really hope and pray tt instead of backsliding, ill grow more in love w God.

anw, let me recommend something, for girls only.. errm.. www.girlfriendsingod.com is like osme qt material online and i guess its really good cause it talks abt wht women faces and all.. haha sign up for it and they'll send to ur email every single day. and the good hting is.. it's for FREE. YAY. hmm.. if guys wanna read also can la i think. i always wondered whether guys hv like boyfriendsingod.com.. HAHA. okay bye!

give up, move on

2008-10-01T08:16:00.000-07:00

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YOU HAVE TURNED, MY MOURNING INTO DANCING.
YOU HAVE TURNED, MY SORROWS INTO JOY.

this is how we overcome

2008-10-01T08:15:00.000-07:00

annabel,

do not be conformed to this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

Lord, help me t say yes t You and no to e world..

this is the truth

2008-09-25T08:38:00.000-07:00

If you dont seek God, satan will seek you.

PRIVILEGED KID

2008-09-22T07:48:00.000-07:00

What a friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry
Everything to God in prayer!
Oh, what peace we often forfeit,
Oh, what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer!
Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged—Take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful,
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness;Take it to the Lord in prayer.
Are we weak and heavy-laden,
Cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Savior, still our refuge—Take it to the Lord in prayer.
Do thy friends despise, forsake thee?
Take it to the Lord in prayer!
In His arms He’ll take and shield thee,
Thou wilt find a solace there.
Blessed Savior, Thou hast promised
Thou wilt all our burdens bear;May we ever, Lord, be bringing
All to Thee in earnest prayer.
Soon in glory bright, unclouded,
There will be no need for prayer—
Rapture, praise, and endless worship
Will be our sweet portion there.

Joseph M. Scriven, 1855

John 15:13; Greater love has no one than this, that He lay down His life for His friends.

Lord, thank you for speaking to me. Indeed it is a privilege to carry everything to You in prayer! help me to trust and believe in You. In my saviour's name i pray, Amen.

tyra banks motto

2008-09-04T10:36:00.000-07:00

BEAUTY IS IN THE EYE OF THE BUTT OWNER. LOL.

i was rmbred of my past.

2008-09-03T09:41:00.000-07:00

Goodness me. i cant believe tt ive yet to forget abt you. and i was abt to forget you untill.. a silly dream appeared last night. maybe it's a spiritual attack or something.. but i thought it still gave me some hope then i thought maybe not. i guess 99.9% was just a fantasy and the 0.01% is REALITY. yup, i must learn how to face reality. i must learn to say, you will nt be mine and i would nt be urs and i guess nvr will it happen unless God made it happen.

i highly doubt you would ever give me a thought. Maybe last time, tt was wht i assumed, hmm neh..i guess nt. its bad to assume.

well.. i felt tt it was good 4 you to move on, because i guess without you, life is so much simpler for me. however, im starting to miss you.. and i hate it!

Im human after all.. and humans do fall in love.. and in e past i thought tt you made fun of me, avoided me, didnt talk to me, was sarcastic, rude because u knew tt i was interested and i guess, yes! you're like tt.

before the days when u actl move out, just BEFORE, let me emphasise, you actl started to talk to me? annoying dinosaur!

hai.. i just wished uve nvr appeared in my life or at least i wish tt ive nvr been to e place where u were. i should hv just gone to my sis's place

-good friend, why did u ever invited me there?-

i really wonder why God placed me in tt position and want to see me struggle w all these tt i even got a really bad headache tt lasted for months! terrible, its just terrible!

Lord, help me to forget? help me to surrender? for the past FOUR years of my life ive been FOOLISH. and im sorry tt i am.. Help me Lord to dance w You and tt the man for me will cut in one day. (:

hope tt you'll read this blog and i hope tt you actually know its YOU. but i thank God for using YOU in my experience youve given me, so tt i will NOT fall into the same mistake again.

and it will nvr happen, nvr nvr ever ever nvr happen.

Love.

He'll still be there.

2008-08-11T07:05:00.000-07:00

hey peeps! This verse really spoke to me

Rom 8: 38-39

"For i am convinced that neither death nor life. neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither great height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to seperate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

Sky dining 170608

2008-06-17T23:58:00.001-07:00

sky dining was awesome! (:

Equinox with family 280408

2008-04-30T09:19:00.000-07:00

Had family reunion at equinox on sunday 280408! :D
Photos:

sis and i

My popo

My cuzzie!

popo and gongong

unglam shots:

1st attempt

2nd attempt

PHOTOS

2008-03-18T07:17:00.001-07:00

I'm like being bored right now.. so i'll just have some photos put up..HEE!

I'm zi lianing.. but i didnt take this pictures myself.

Okieeee. That's all for today.

Praise God for my results

2007-12-29T04:53:00.000-08:00

hey! im so sorry for not blogging for a long long time. Had alot of events and activities, didnt have time. haha.

Well, i'm here to say that i really want to thank God for pulling me through this year; for really picking me up whenever i fall. There was one time i was soo sick that i couldnt even study. I just wanted sleep and more sleep. Was i love sick? haha okay nvm..I had so many struggles, so many issues to deal with and alot of times i feel that i just want to give up beacause i was too tired to carry on.

When my N lvl prelims were near, my wisdom tooth and my molar were giving me a very huge problem and i had to remove both of them on my left; and when i thought that this teeth problems are over, i had a swollen gum on my right, because another molar was coming out there and i tell you, it was really killing me. When i poked it, it hurt ALOT and the BEST thing was that it happen just a few days before my N levels.

My mouth was like a blood fountain. haha! but at the end of the day, God was soo faithful to me. Despite all these obstacles, i managed to top my school in 'N' s.

All you need is to trust and surrender everything to the lovely Father above. :D

Be ENCOURAGED. HAH.

Message Of Hope

2007-11-23T07:44:00.000-08:00

A Message of Hope
May God grant you His Wisdom & His Grace
For all of life's problems you have to face
May He encourage your heart and calm each fear
Comfort you and give you cheer.

When your best plans have been rearranged
And all around you things have changed
The pressure's on to just give in
To join the crowd 'cause you can't win

May god draw you closer and closer to Him
When the days are long and your path grows dim
When clouds obscure the sunny skies
And through the darkness your worn heart cries

When things go wrong, though you fight for right
You're weary from the long day's fight
Your pillow is wet with tears at night
No one to share, to know your plight

May God hold you, enfold you in His care
Your burdens, your heartaches, your sorrows bear
Exchange your problems for a song
His angels guard you all night long

May all your discouragements be left behind
In Christ a fresh, new courage find
And rise to face another day
Because the Savior leads the way

By Luella Sebo

WAHH. This poem so touching.

Sense of inaccomplishment

2007-10-28T08:12:00.000-07:00

WONDERFUL! tomorrow's my e math paper 1 and i'm still awake. Suddenly, i feel fear and anxiety over powering me; but how can i let them weigh me down? hmm.. now's the time to practise our faith yea?!- surrender to God and trust Him for our results-

Why isit that this year pass extremely fast? It still feels as if it's in the middle of the year. This thoughts brought me back to this question-What have i really done for God?- I feel rather inaccomplish, like i lacked to do something. Well, God reminded me about my friends again; when i see what they do in school, it really really pains and hurts me and i'm sure it hurt Gods heart too.

People are sinning but they don't even know it! how ignorant! In 2 corinthians 4:4 says" The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God."

Therefore i ask myself, have i been complacent and turn a deaf ear towards God? have i lost the passion to reach out to my friends? I guess i really need to repent and ask God to re-ignite the fire in me. Well, many a times it seems impossible to reach out to my friends because they're so blinded, but God has promised that all things are possible through Him!

YAY! so let's not give up and continue to pursue what God has called us to do! Because God never gives up on us and these people. pray pray pray! :D

Oh yes! today's my Dad's birthday.. growing old..hai..yups! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD DAD.

Want some strawberry shortcake? :D

A burden gone!

2007-10-06T07:36:00.000-07:00

ALAS. My N lvls are over! how i yearn for this day. I'm going to exhaust myself with FUN! haha.. those taking O lvls, your turn will come soon, dont worry. :D Anyways, some people think that N lvls dont EXIST, only Os. Isn't that so degrading? haha.

The one i love, left me.

2007-09-27T05:00:00.000-07:00

On a saturday, 3 years back. A career woman, Belinda, decided to get herself a pet to keep her accompany at home. She lives alone in a terrace and hence found out she was lonely.

She went to a near by pet shop beside her house. While taking glances at all the animals in the small locked cage, she found a dog which caught her eyes just by a split second. It was a Golden furred Cockle Spaniel. It was looking at her with it's big blue eyes and waggling its tail. She adored it, couldn't resist and bought it home.

She played with it, hugged it, kissed it; she gave it all it desired. The end of the weekend came, she had to get back to work. She had too much workload that even when she wanted to bring her pet for walks along the park and play with it, she just couldn't find time.

This continued until christmas where everything changed.

'Merry christmas, Butter!' she exclaimed. There always used to be the sound of chains clinging near the door, but this time, the only thing she could hear was her voice echoing through the living room. She found it strange, hurriedly placed her gifts on the living room table and thoroughly searched the whole house for Butter, but it couldn't be found.

Panting, she thrust herself on her bed and wondered where Butter was? Teared flowed down her cheeks every single day since butter was gone. She couldn't even concentrate in her workplace, what her eyes saw, was only Butter. It seemed like the most important thing she had gained in her life.

Taking a stroll down the terraces on a saturday night, she came across a terrace not far away, with a dog and the owner happily playing with each other. She looked closer and realised that dog was a golden furred cockle spaniel with a small white patch just beneath it's ankle. It was Butter!

She called it's name, butter looked at her with a fierce look. She called it again, but instead of butter coming to her and licking her hand, it barked furiously with great anger and almost bit her.

Belinda jumped; and rushed back home, afraid that Butter would pounce on her.

Belinda was always in deep thought, pondering about why Butter left her. After that incident, she finally knew why. It was because She neglected Butter.

She regretted, but what's the point? What was done cannot be changed.

This year, she bought a white yorkshire terrier. She took good care of it and gave it lots of love and care. For the past three years, the memories Butter left her still ran fresh in her mind.

She just couldn't forget and forgo.
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the one she still loves, left her.

Glory fall on us

2007-09-26T07:58:00.000-07:00

Was listening to Jeff Deyo (Unveil) . One particular song lyrics really impacted me

It is:

The Hour of Your return

Creation groans

For that great day

When Heaven and Earth collide

When every heart

With one pure voice

Will bow to You and cry..
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How i really long for that day when the whole earth will bow before You and acknowledge You as their King, Lord. I love You.

half way through the 'N's

2007-09-05T08:51:00.000-07:00

Finally three N lvl papers are over. Now it's time for me to relax and i PROMISE to get back to studying mode next week.

Bel....All the way girl! ;D

i'm back from "space"

2007-08-06T08:15:00.000-07:00

It's been quite a long time since i posted right? Even so, i wont let my blog die. heh heh.
My Chinese paper 1, Social studies and English prelims have just past. My mom says i could rest today! So might as well take the opportunity to exercise my fingers!

This coming wednesday, guess what?! i'm removing my wisdom tooth and molar!!(overlaping) SO COOL RIGHT?! hahaha.. if i dont get it done, the molar would try it's best to force itself out and therefore, pushing my existing bottom teeth, making it crooked. and i dont want my parents to spend a hefty amount on me to do braces again if it really happens. So it's best to just remove them right? I can show you my stitches after the operation if you want! :D

However, the one thing that i dislike about this whole operation thingy is that i have to go through so many X rays.. quite scary when the machine goes around thinking that your brain would explode or your hair gets burnt or something. But seriously, recently i took this X ray known as " OPG" and i really felt my brain was about to explode.. luckily it didn't. If it did, see you guys in heaven! AHHA! okay out of point. -.-

I heard that going through too many X rays cause you to lose brain cells.. is that the reason why i'm so dumb, to the extent where someone calls me AIR HEAD?!

So whoever i'm going out with from wednesday onwards, be PREPARED to see my SWOLLEN left cheek. BE AFRAID! haha..okay..abit too exaggerating eh? It's a good thing though..since your gum hurts, which means you cant eat hard food, which means that porridge is the only choice, which MEANS that i'll grow slim! HAHAA! okayy..lameeeee. yes! i agree that i'm really fat!! i can win the miss fattest pageant award!

Pray for me guys..hope i wont cry after the operation.
Oh yess..anyways, happy NATIONAL DAY IN ADVANCE ( wow bellsey's so patriotic!! heh heh.)Not to forget...hmm.. thirteen days after national day, there's also another special event!heeee.

Loves.. ((:

God speaks when you're asleep

2007-06-27T08:23:00.000-07:00

HEYEES! School holidays are finally over. Only had two weeks of holidays! ahh. I wonder why i'm still online at such a ungodly hour. haha! oh well..This is gonna be short. Don't want to be LUOR-SOR, if that's how u spell it.

Today, just want to tell you that God can speak to you when you're asleep. Have you encountered it before? Well, it was on sunday night when i was asleep, i saw the number 61. There was this voice which said turn your bible to isaiah 61. So, on monday, i was filled with excitement, i opened my bible and there it says," He has sent me to bind up the broken hearted to proclaim freedom for the captives.."

I got a shock of my life and thought what was God trying to say? Finally realised that God's going to use me. WOOW! God's gonna use me!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! i'm soo excited.. and He actually gave me an oppurtunity in school so that He can really use me. Awesome right?? YAY so happy. Anyways, i realised that, when you earnestly want to be use by God, He'll use you.

feel free to ask more! It's really going to be exciting! :D
That's all!LAAAAAA-AAAA-AAAA-AAA

Starry starry night

2007-06-12T09:53:00.000-07:00

You might find me weird to share about this famous mad artist as what people might say. Why I've decided to talk about Vincent Van Gogh it's because i think his life's such a waste.

Vincent was trained to become a preacher and almost brought revival to this coal mining village. This coal mining village not only consist of coal mining purposes but also prostitutes and drug addicts.

Vincent's fellow churchmen misunderstood him as they thought that Vincent wanted to be part of that crowd. All the insults that he got from the church made him leave. As time flew, he grew cold, backslided, turned mad, took drugs. Worse still, he cut of his left ear and was admitted to the mental hospital, he totally went insane.

There was even a time when he was painting, he took a bottle of paint and wanted to drink it. His doctor then refrained him from painting. He ended his life by shooting himself with a gun.

I think his life's such a waste! He almost brought revival to a village! What great potential, all gone and his soul is now in hell. Dont know why i show so much interest in his life. Maybe people just don't understand him.

This song is written for him called 'Vincent':

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

BELLE

Where am i? 290507

2007-05-29T08:45:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, really apologise for my attitude today, wasn't feeling that well, emotionally and was tired.( when i get tired, i'll go bonkers). unless i'm pmsing?
Some words spoken today, kept me thinking about where has God called me to serve in His ministry. What foolish thoughts i have to think that music ministry is the one that i must join because all my friends are joining. If everyone's in music ministry, who would be there to welcome people? who would be there to flash the words on the screen, who would be there to let people know about the latest things happening around them?

Besides, i don't even know what is my gift. the words 'lost' and 'alone' suddenly weighed upon my heart. sense of belonging suddenly just faded away..don't feel like i belong to this church. Or all my life i've actually not supposed to belong to it. Really don't know what's happening to me..woow really let God down this time. Hard to deny that it's actually deception deceiving me and most probably laughing at me at this very moment. But why do i not seem to care? and just carry on with the ways of this spirit? Have i given up? "Annabel, have you given up?" Really tired......so tired.....where are your closest friends when you need encouragement? Or do i actually have close friends?

so so sorry for blabbering about this, i really can't hold it back any longer. you might think that my life's perfect, but you don't know what's actually happening deep down inside..very 'haps' right? yup very "haps" :D Now i know how it feels to not be cared for. The think that i'm most proud of is to have a God by my side who never fails to comfort me and DOES NOT treat me less important than anybody else.

SCREAM annabel, SCREAM as loud as you want! [ It's fine if you don't understand the way i feel,actually you don't have to understand because i just want to post it down.]

It's feels Good to be strong! Really Praise God

2007-04-27T05:32:00.000-07:00

FINALLY i know the cause of my giddyness! My mom and i had been thinking for 8 days where this giddyness came from. Yesterday, my mom found out that i was anaemic and she gave me a iron tablet. You know what? It really did work! I feel so energised! FOR EIGHT WHOLE DAYS, something that i've never ever experience before in this 15 years of my life, a weakling! All i wanted to do was to sleep sleep and get more sleep. Although i sleep sooo much, the giddyness keeps coming back. I thought i would feel tired and giddy for the rest of my life and therefore i started to envy people who were so healthy that could joke and be happy and laugh all they could but for me, i only sat there and tried my best to be strong. What an experience!

Eventhough i just lack iron, i know that there's a purpose for this headache to happen. It really caused me to rely upon God's strength. Like i'm a bag of dried bones and He's like the muscles that help me move.

Partly i guess was a spiritual attack. I surrendered many things to God and obviously the devil would be angry. Last wednesday night while i was studying my social studies, this giddyness hit me and i felt so tired, so tired until i can't be bothered to think of anything, i talked less, asked questions less and don't even have the strength to spend time with the one that i love, God. All i desired was to lie on bed and maybe sleep and never wake up again. So many things just ran through my mind ," Am i going to fail my mid year exams? Since i don't even have the strength to focus. am i going to let my parents down?"

However, i told myself i can't be like that forever, no matter what circumstance, i'll still worship and praise my saviour. So i got up with all the strength that i had, held the guitar in my hands and strummed a love song to God. At the same time, i've never felt so desperate in my life because i don't want this tiredness to affect my english paper tomorrow [that's today], I cried desperately and i kneeled before God and all i asked for was "STRENGTH" and "HEAL ME". I didn't care if i lose my dignity, i didn't care even if i shouted so loud until my neighbours could hear everything. I also told Jesus," I'm hopeless, i'm tired, and i don't thing i will do well for my english paper tomorrow. Now, do what you want in my life, even if i have to fail or pass with flying colours, let Your will be done, i don't control my life. Take full control Jesus." and i just surrendered to God. All i wanted was to be strengthen. Well, God INDEED is a God that is faithful. a God that hears and a God that heals! God gave my mom the wisdom to give me iron tablets, if not she wouldn't have thought of that.

This situation is like a stepping stone in my life and it taught me many things. Firstly, it has caused me to be fully dependant on God. Secondly, you can't do things with your own strength. Thirdly, go against the situation and pray!

Now i know that even though you might go through things that cause you to lose focus, God's always faithful, no matter what circumstance. So no matter what circumstance, we must ALSO do the same and give our best to God! MY GOD NEVER LEAVES ME NOR FORSAKES ME. HE'S THE BEST!

Until my breath runs dry, i will sing to You.
Belle-Jesus's Princess

Now you know what we do in class. HAHA

2007-04-20T05:23:00.000-07:00

YAY! finally something to blog about! Hello. Didn't go school today, was too giddy to go school. I wonder where this giddiness come from. It's been on for TWO WHOLE DAYS! Really worried. Hope it's the weather that cause this but i doubt. Probably it has to do with my eyes, hate bright light now and i wore sunglasses the whole day and still am wearing NOW. I wonder what's wrong with me -Sigh

Oh well, let me tell you something random, My study table is like a bermuda triangle. I dropped a pencil lead while trying to put it in my mechanical pencil and i can't possibly find it! Next, i dropped the back of my earring (was taking my earring out). Took up quite alot of time to search for these while i could use this time to study for the day. Seems like days are getting shorter, since i've been having a splitting headache lately, that's why time now's so precious. Pray for me if you can :)

On wednesday while waiting for the next teacher to come in to class, My friends and i played with green round stickers. i coloured mine black and paste it right under my right nose hole. Yep i looked like an 'Ah soh'. Free time in school never fails to make me happy. my class rocks! oh yes, i'm not acting cute! i'm just trying to exaggerate the mole. -.-

Pretty face.

rudolf,indian, ah-soh. HAAAA.

Here again to spill my thoughts my feelings my emotions. Hope it won't stumble anyone. Just realised that you can't really control your life, you can't have the things that you want so badly and when you think something is working out, it actually isn't and you'll just go sad over it. You can't have things the way you want it. Only God controls everything, our plans for the future. I was doing my quiet time yesterday and God just told me,"When will you learn to put your trust in me about your future?" Today, still am learning how to surrender everything to God. from Studies, school and all the way to crushes. Really tough but little by little i know my God will help me overcome. Well, Life's not like a princess's.

annabee.

Book and Music week

2007-03-25T08:11:00.000-07:00

Such a tiring week isn't it? I'm still taking this portion of time to blog because i don't think there's any other day that i can.

BMW not known as Big Mouth Woman, as what lester defines,it is book and music week. An event which is held once a year during the month of march.a some what celebration since my school is an artsy fartsy school! :D This year the theme was renaissance. I love the renaissance, Their Long fluffy dresses,petticoats,cosets! how i wish i could wear them! (sounds like air head patricia! haha!)Woow! Queen Kings Noblemen and women!Too bad God didn't create me during that era.. heh. If i was, I guess i would be super duper ultra mega pretty with many suitors! haha..okay..going overboard. BMW really helped my classmates and i get closer together because of the project runway and the busking. Didn't know they are some funny bunch of people..haha. As class chairman, =P really hope that the whole of 402 will have such great team spirit!

Backstage was really fun eventhough we didn't manage to catch all the performance..we were dancing joking laughing loudly backstage.haha. Despite having to fix microphones and setting up some stuff, all of us had a great time.

This years BMW's awesome! i wanna be backstgae next year too! You won't have to squeeze in the hot and humid hall like a can or sardins. haha! Here are some pictures for you so that you can get a clearer view of what happened but i don't think it's much of a use.

Fazila- our model!

Designers: Roycelyn and i

Helpers for project runway. :))

Kisses,
Belliee

Soccer girls!

2007-03-07T07:13:00.000-08:00

Hey i didn't know that soccer was so much of fun! realised it today during P.E lesson. My whole class had a so called free period as my teacher went to run the 2.4km run with the girls that failed. Fazila trizia roycelyn and i were actually trying to do some gymnastics on a metal pole and somehow or rather we grew tired of it and fazila suggested to a game of soccer.

We took a soccer ball and started to kick it around the huge grass field. Nadhirah joined us later on. Roycelyn was the goal keeper, Trizia and i were one team and fazila and nadhirah were another. I managed to score a goal but it was a lousy goal because there were no defenders around to defend me. As usual, i kept screaming for no reason. Maybe i was too excited and happy. Well, fazila said she was Beckham, Roycelyn was Owen and i was Ronaldo ( fazila chose that bald headed guy for me -.-) Not sure about trizia and Nadhirah.

I realised that when you're in the game of soccer, you really need good stamina to run around the big field and the soccer ball can really hurt your legs and makes them dirty.

Many funny stuns happened in the free and easy soccer game. It really cheered up my day due to my poor results. Had an awesome time really, i hope that five of us can play soccer again the next P.E lesson! Appreciate you girls for making my day! LOVE YA'LL. <3> :))